Sunday, May 20, 2007
MOVED [:
**click on the image, yo!
Friday, May 18, 2007
I DON'T KNOW, BABY!
1. i dont know what's wrong with me. everything seem so different. gah.
2. i don't know what's happening to my friendship with my friends. prolly i'm just too sensitive.
3. i don't know what to do with my life. i feel like throwing my stuffs out of the window.
4. i don't know to cry or be happy. i wanna bang my head on the wall.
5. i don't know how to make you understand. stop accusing me and misjudge me. i can't take it.
the list goes on and on.
i shall take my break now[: projects are piling up and mid-sem test in 2-3weeks time.
so long,
XOXO
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
wiltedroses,another attempt to photography. but this time with my digicam. it sucks i know.
i think i shouldn't be too sensitive. well it hurts when a new friend uses harsh words on you. it happened to me earlier today, and i was already at the verge of crying. but i remembered what jaf said. so i swallow everything, and tried to be okay.
thankfully, school ended early today. i can't stand tutorials. i really have to bear with everthing. and feel so much like an outcast. totally.
sweet 17 tomorrow. say i'm not looking forward to it like i always do.
bye!
Monday, May 07, 2007
SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU TO DEAREST COUSIN AND HIS WIFE,
BRO ZAHUDY AND SIS SHIDA [:
Sunday, May 06, 2007
i feel like shutting down this blog. reason : i'm very lazy. yeah right.
whatever that's written here is only 1/5 of my life [: people've been asking if i'm okay and stuff. i am okay. things been great except for some shitty stuff which i don't wish to mention here. life is full of ups and down isn't it?
i don't know what's wrong with me, but i've been grumpy the past few days. gah.
oh yeah, i know i've been quiet in class and stuff but that does not mean that i'm anti-social or whatsoever. jhkfbnsldk837038012j9ed **more details at eljay (will update soon!)
[: birthday this coming wednesday. i'm not looking forward to it because i know everything will be different.
bye!
Friday, May 04, 2007
PART II
like what i've mentioned, i've so many overdue pictures but i don't know where to start. gah.
i'm sorry to those people whom ive hurt due to my attitude yesterday. i wasn't in the mood at all. all i wanted was to be alone. and i mean alone. i don't know what's bothering me. i tried to be okay but i can't.
yesterday's lab lesson for csa was great [: i wasn't listening most of the time. not only me, but the other classmates too. LOL! all of us were kiasu using vbuzz and chatting with each other through the net evnthough there were like sitting next to each other. that includes me too lah. i was chatting with amelia and wei neng when they were actually sitting beside me. ridiculous, i know.
school's been okay for me today except for principle of management [tutorial]. the tutor wanted the class to be in groups. and i ended up being with the guys. i tried my best to control my anger but i couldn't. i was cursing and cursing (i know i shouldnt, but i was so mad and i even told myself not to break down). but whatever, i'm okay immediately after that. i don't give a hoot about it. i shouldn't be too sensitive, just like what jaf have said.
last two days (2nd May), jaf gave me a surprise! [: he came down to tp (temasek poly) to cheer me up due to some misunderstanding. he created a story saying that he has passed something to hsi friend, aaron. he couldn't meet me because he has to go to school. i was like "oh okay!" and so during tutorial, i was wondering how aaron will look like and how on earth will he know i'm the girl jaf's referring to. &&you're so right, i did not pat attention in class.
class ended and jaf told me to go to the business school's entrance immediately after class. so i went. i looked around but there's just too many people around. then then, *poof!*. jaf appeared. [: and of course i acted being mad still. oops! jaf gave me a choco (like how he always do to cheer me up) and accompanied me for lunch at business park. he remembered how i was complaining endlessly that i've no malay friends to go for lunch with.
really really sweeet [: after lunch, jaf accompanied me to my next tutorial class. it was my first time going for accounting's tutorial so i was afraid of being lost alone.
after school, met up with darling yana. i really love that girl! and i seriously miss the good ol' times we used to have. laughing and laughing. doodling on each other's hand using a green pen. [: catching ups with yana, was superdupergreat! we collected our o's certificate and then i met up with jaf [:
had dinner with jaf at our usual place, banquet at compass point. and our usual food, takoyaki. after which, we headed home.
that's prolly it. i've another entry to update on. [: will update tonight, i guess. cousin's wedding this weekend. i can't wait!
bye loves.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
PART Itime check: 1:11am (for goodness sake!)
im supposed to be asleep by now, but i can't. and i don't really like it. i tucked in at 12am but i ended up tossing and turning, looking through pictures in my phone, reading messages instead of sleeping. damn it. and know why i couldn't sleep? it's because i did not eat my medicine. [: i thought of consuming the cough syrup but im afraid i couldnt wake up the next morning. stupid, i know. i've done that before the night before my history paper (during the secondary life back then) and i ended up writing shits and fell asleep half way through it.
had a toast spreaded with margerine (i dont give a hoot if it's fattening!). two mug of mineral water. and i ended up being full and couldnt sleep in the end. i resort to revise my accounting stuff which is okay to me. school's been okay too to me.
okay speaking of school, i had lectures. not that i hate the subjects. i hate the inconsiderate people who just wouldn't shut the hell up. i even sat at the first row to concentrate and still, no good. no difference. damn it, can.
there was a blackout just now when abang was pluging in "i don't know what". it happened when i was on the phone with liyana. i screamed two times, and thanks to the lil brother for that. and as usual, abang will scold the lil brother. and of course, liyana was laughing at the other line.
ignore all the random shits i wrote. thank you!
mom and myself went out yesterday (it's 1:21am now) . went to tampines. had lunch at ljs. and i really miss having lunch with mom at ljs. then we walked around the shopping centre. got myself a necklace and then off we go to marina square. mom got herself necklace and bracelet.
got myself some makeup stuff then went to topshop got myself some top after which we headed home [: i had a super great time with mom. talked so much to mom about the shits and happenings in my life. and i love her for being my listening ear and my adviser. she's my mom + bestfriend. and i wonder what's life without her. because i don't have a sister and great girlfriends company like you guys people out there have. (okay, i swear i will cry if i elaborate more).
(and yes, i was sepet yesterday.)
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
a new blogskin ! [:
ive pictures to upload for my next entry .will do it at night, okie dokie! and i promise you it will be a superduper long entry with pictures.
take care lovelies!
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